as i have been watching “fictional” tv show for the past couple season, that is loosely based around the central valley. i used to think what we did was something unique to our area. then i sit here watching this of course it is greatly dramatized but there are enough coincidental similarities, it makes me think we were not that unique, apparently we were no different than thousands of people across the nation. the same ones who sit and watch this same show.
i grew up in lodi, and lived a grandiose life in m mind trying to pattern it after the same types i sought approval from, only to loose it all behind the pursuit of that.leaving being a good size fish in a small pond & ending up homeless and faceless in a big city. living out my annonymous life getting cheap thrills of past glories through a fictional tv. nobody knows anything about what i did or didn’t do before i started my new life in the big city, and even though i was never as big and bad as i thought i was. when someone calls me a wannabe these days i just have to laugh, cause they will never know how much i don’t want that. or for that matter how much different i am to how i used to be. bring me to wonder how many others fit in that same box, and who is running around thrown out wannabe to cover their own tracks. but i digress i just started to write about the similarities of old lodi and a fictional tv and well my rambling mind got the best of me again. well that is why i started writing to find a sense of peace of mind.
